it has been 12 years......

It has been 10 years since the last i saw 'him'- my sepet first love.I told myself long time ago to let go because that's the best for me because I trully want to see him happy.For me, as long as he lived a good life with a great woman who loves him more than I do, that would be enough.I promised myself not to enter his beautiful life though sometimes I long to be apart of it.
Since it has been 10 years, he might already erased me from from his life yet I cant do the same -something that I hate about myself. It still hurts my heart to see him even after 10years we walked the different path.I wished I didnt fall for him but he was my favourite mistake and will always be.He made me want to be someone better in the past and I can never stop thank Allah for sending him to me though it was for a very short while.He always popped in my mind whenever I hear this 2 songs from Winter Sonata OST.
So all I have now is Allah to help me continue this life........


English Translations only

FROM THE FIRST TO NOW

by Rye

You will never come back to me and you can't do it, 
please stop doing so, you comfort me like this.. 
If I can't see you again, I really wanna forget.. 
all about you that hold me 


Whenever I wanna laugh, you make me cry.. 
You keep me from doing even one thing as I want.. 
Whenever I miss you, I break down like this. 
Even though I try to forget, I cannot do it..
*If I can't see you again, I really wanna forget.. 
all about you that hold me


Whenever I wanna laugh, you make me cry.. 
You keep me from doing even one thing as I want.. 
Whenever I miss you, I break down like this. 
Even though I try to forget, I cannot do it.. 
I didn't realize loving one is so hard like this 
* Whenever I wanna laugh, you make me cry.. 
You keep me from doing even one thing as I want.. 
Whenever I miss you, I break down like this. 
Even though I try to forget, I cannot do it.. 

MY MEMORY

by Rye

I remember everything 

I can’t see even a little thing

 when I close my eyes. 

You're far away 

somewhere that I can’t reach 

I didn’t say I love you or 

I will wait for you 

I really didn't imagine meeting you again 

I still love you, 

I confess you now 

I wanna love forever if it is not late, 

forever with me 

Even though my heart lived without you for a long time, 

You were in my heart 

I really didn't imagine meeting you again. 

I still love you, 

I confess you now 

I wanna love forever if it is not late, 

forever with me

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